I am sitting at lunch with two old friends a new acquaintance. Friendly chit-chat begins and the new person asks me, “So, Gavin, what do you do?” My two old friends practically spit out their drinks and giggle, “I cannot wait to hear this.”
Jesus and his disciples went on to the villages around Caesarea Philippi. On the way he asked them, “Who do people say I am?”
They replied, “Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, one of the prophets.”
“But what about you?” he asked. “Who do you say I am?”
Peter answered, “You are the Messiah.”
Mark 8: 27 – 29
For over 20 plus years my vocation was as a youth minister within the United Methodist Church and associated organizations. One of the lessons that I often shared with teenagers and young people was this scripture where Jesus asks “Who do you say that I am?” I would ask the young people who they were, and who did people say that they were. The results were often the same, young people ‘were’ the product of what they did. “I am a baseball player.” etc. You can imagine this list. I would implore that they were more than what they did. Their identity was not something that they did, but was within who they were created by.
Circle back to two or three years ago. With a growing family and my passion for day to day church work life waining it felt the proper time to walk away from a vocational life within the church. So, I tendered a resignation at my current church. What I did not expect was that my own identity had been so tied into being “a youth minister” that I have only recently come to reconcile that this part of what I did was who I was. I knew better, but it still had become so entrenched in my being that it has taken quite a bit of time to rediscover who I am in a new way.
For the last three years, I have tinkered and created pockets of things in order to find my way to a new self (and make some income for the family). It is safe to say that I am still on this journey of wayfinding and will continue to be for some time, maybe even my lifetime.
This site, this blog is a collection of my thoughts and ideas shared for myself and for others in re-discovering one’s self (maybe re-discovering for a third or fourth time).
I call this process for me, a wayfinding life.
If some of this resonates with you and you might like to talk personally, feel free to drop me a line.